WeaRinG tHe mAsk oF hUrT

2006-01-07T09:18:00.000-08:00

common test came to an end yesterday ...
after the econs paper, went to orchard with my classmates(angeline,yas and minli)..
had swensens. took photos and neoprints.
went to meet my cousin after that. went to shop for new year clothes.
bought a pair of skirt and a top, both from espirit.
a pair of jeans, shoes, and more tops not bought yet! so many days of holiday this yr! must buy more! hahas. but im broke.
went home at about 10..
changed, and then, went back to orchard AGAIN. PS in particular.
catch the movie "moonlight in tokyo"..
damn damn nice.. funny and touchingg.. but the ending is sad!
i love the main theme by guang liang.. "dou shi ni" ... but the song not in any of his albums.. =(
however,! i had the song! hahas. =p
reach home at about 4.30AM. tok on phone until 6+ then went to sleepp...
sleep for 2 hrs plus ONLY. then woke up to go for work..
arghh.. damn lethargic and restless the whole morning..
until someone sms me. hahas. and i guess im abit not right after thatt.. =x
quite happy i guess. =p
went to had dinner at ORCHARD (aGain!) ..
and then we went to "the balcony" at heeren..
a nice place i would say .. nice ambience ...
drank something related to "sour apple" .. hahas. dunnoe wad is it.. cocktails? the name damn long. hahas. and chim! so pardon me!
first time drinking alcoholic in PUBLIC! hahas! =x
and here i am now... damn tired.. and its work again tml morning! hais.....
and erm.. actually had something to write about ... but i dont know where i should start .. shall write on it when things are getting on well.. =p

do u know im waiting for your sms ... ?

2006-01-03T08:15:00.000-08:00

last update: 25th oct 2005
its been 2 months plus since i update...
too much things happened... until i really dunnoe how to writee...
okie, 2005 has come to an end a few days ago..
tok about 2005...
-work at bata during my holidays
-a lonely valentines day
-o levels results was out
-started a new stage of my life at np..
-know new CLASSMATES..
-continued part time at bata
-celebrated my 18th birthday
-completed the 1st semester of my poly education
-spend my christmas eve and christmas working.. a short "celebration" after work on christmas eve.. a lonely christmas once again..
-26/12 .. my elder sis big day..
-and there she is in japan for honeymoon now.. 2 weeks! omg! i miss herr... and im waiting for my presents... =x
-and here comes the new yr eve... spend at esplanade with my colleagues.. we went to a pub in clark quay after that... first time since im 18 i went to a pub.. although not really called a pub i should say... only reach home at 5.30am the next dayy...
-my heart breaks once its 1/1/2006...

and so.. i started my new year with a broken heart...
its common test once again now.. common test for the 2nd semester of year 1.. and in 2 months time its a long holiday again.. time really fliess....

its poa paper today.. quite simple i can say.. its even easier than o levels.. but i know things are not so easy.. they r going to kill us during end of semester exam... so lets wait and seee....
went tiong to collect my pay.. xn went with mee.. thanks girl... and i shouldnt have go.. i saw someone there.. someone i thought i wouldnt see since that day.. but yet.. i saw him.. was it fate? or was god trying to play with me? haiii.. i just hope i didnt see him justt nowww.. looking into his eyes will only hurt me moree....

please dont walk into my heart furthermore.. please walk out slowlyyy..

2005-10-26T12:17:00.000-07:00

生日快乐, 我对自己说...
i'm finally 18 todayy..
finallyyy...
i waited so longg for itt... but yet when this day finally comess...
i realise i dont reallly want it to comee..
i dont know whhy..
hmm..
let's talk about yesterdayy...
slack at home for the whole morning and afternooon..
hais.. i shouldnt have take off.. should have just went to workk to occupy myselff...
=(
went out with my ex colleague in the eveningg..
went to marina to have dinner and catch the movie "april show"..
not a very nice movie i should say.. abit borringg.. =x
after that she went to meet her friend for awhile and ask me to waitt for herr..
so i was walking around alone... then i saw huising and wenjun!
this world is just too small..
chatted with them for quite longg there...
lucky i saw themm.. hee... then got people accompany meee...
wj left first while hs waited with me for my friend.. thanks girl...
we talked alott... heee..
my phone started ringing at 12am..
thanks everyone who sms mee last night...
i was quite sad and disappointed when someone didnt sms me..
he was the 1st one to sms me last yrr.. yet he didnt even sms me this yrr..
hais..
i was looking at my phone the whole nightt..
waiting for that single sms from him...
but each time i receive a sms, i was disappointed..
haiss..
i guess i was quiet the whole night.. i keep thinking of wad happen on this very day last yr...
its already a year... hais....
went to ecp after 12am with my ex colleagues..
went to grab something to eat..
they bought me a cake.. thanks thankss..
then me and one of my colleague dunnoe where to go..
so we went to find sheena..
call her down at 3am..
so paiseii..
went to have a drink near her house till about 4.30 then we headed homee..
i cant sleep the whole night..
i'm so sleepy and tired.. but i just couldnt get into sleep..
hais..
i hate thiss...
going out with my grp of friends later on...
hope i enjoy myself?

i hope i get to see him todayy...

2005-10-24T14:30:00.000-07:00

fridayyy..
went swimming in the morning with mei, fiona, han kiat, tuan gee and chu teck...
and went to work after that...
saturdayy..
went orchard again with my elder sis before work.. went to buy my bdae present.. =p
received my first bdae present this yr.. my first pair of levis jeanss.. hee..
bought a pair of scandals at charles and keith also...
and went to have my hair cut at ceni's supercut...
went to work again after that...
sundayy... its work again... nothing special..
suddenly i dont know wad else to write.. hais.. update agaiin...

2005-10-20T22:50:00.000-07:00

updatesssss.....
last saturday..
went orchard with my mother and sis before going to workk.. went to buy some new bedsheets..
shop with them damn sians.. hahas.. but bought 2 pairs of slippers from op.. flip flops again.. hees..
sunday..
went to have lunch at tiong bahru with my elder sis first b4 work..
and its work again.. sianss...
mon nothing special.. just workinggg..
tues.. went to kusu island in the morning with my mother, aunties and cousins...
then went to orchard to buy angeline's bdae present... bought a belt for herr.. hope she like it..hee..
then its working again.. arghhh.. damn tireddd... work from fri all the way to tues.. no off..
wednesday..
finally its my day offf..
went shopping with mei mei, fiona and sheena...
shop for clothess...
shop the whole day but only bought 1 pair of jeanss.. so sad..
but i saw alot of things that i like.. but no money buyy.. =( =(
fiona bought quite a lot of things.. that rich girll.. =p
damn tired after shoppinggg..
thursdayy..
another day off..
initially wanted to go ktv with qiqi.. but she give tuition till too late... then didnt go le..
went to bugis with her instead..
shop around but didnt bought anything.. didnt see anything that i likee..
slack at home and watch tv the whole nightt...
sianss..
and its work again tomorrow.. haisss...
6 more days and i'm 18... =p

2005-10-13T20:53:00.000-07:00

jOooo... want me to update so muchhh?? lols...
orh lah orh la... here i amm..
hahas..
actually i have nothing much to update nehh..
nevermind.. just tok abt wad i do these dayss..
hahas..
last sat hk and fiona came to tiong to wait for me to knock off...
and we went to have dinner together.. hahas.. wad a weird combination, the 3 of us.
we went marina to have steamboat. thats even weird-er. lols.
anyway, had a nice dinner. =)
after dinner had a nice walk too.. lols.. =p
sun, mon, tues.. what else but working?
life is just meaningless lahs..
wed.. which is yest.. oooo.. finally my off day is here..
went out with sheena, ct and kegan..
went to have lunch at yoshi.. and then played pooll...
im simply lousyy.. hahas.. so paiseeii..
then walked around heeren and ceni.. then went to ps..
saw JUN YANG outside gv.. they were filming the super funkies..
omg! sooooo handsomeee....... =p=p
kegan left first.. then we went to bugis..
me like light bulb there siaa.. that couple.. hahas.. bthhh.......
leave for home after awhile....
today was another off day for me... slack at home the whole dayyy.. didnt went out..
and tml... its again work...
haisss.....

2005-10-06T13:48:00.000-07:00

results are out.
didnt reallie plan to wake up and check early in the morning.
BUT, my cousin woke me up at 7.30! hahas.
ask her to see for me. only interested in OB, cos i guess the rest should be ok.
thought she bluff me when she told me my grades.
haha.
so i get out of my bed and check myself.
and yea, i got a A got OB. hahas.
kinda tyco.
i always didnt attend lectures.. and sleep during tutorials..
yet an A?
haha.
tyco.
but no ADs for me.. =(
not even my econs or stats. sigh.
anyway, quite statisfied with my results already.
3 As and 3 B+..
got an A for Econs, stats and OB..
CIP, Ocom and CATS was a B+..
GPA.. 3.77..
=)=)
off to work soon...

2005-10-06T00:18:00.000-07:00

im back..
seems like i didnt keep a promise of updating my blog often..
hahas..
gone for a long time..
all right, semester 1 of year 1 have come to an end 2 or 3 weeks ago.
exams are over, and results will be out tomorrow morning. how fast.
*cross my hand*
have been working these few weeks. only 2 days off per week. how pathetic.
seems like my off day are not enough for me..
hmm. i saw him a few days ago.
he came to the place where im working, together with his father.
he did smile at me. but we didnt speak at all.
i only saw him from far. i was serving customer.
what else can i say? hais.
it looks like its really time for me to give up. seems like he's doing fine with his girl.
hmm.. shall update real soon..
for those reading this.. take care..~~

2005-08-28T22:33:00.000-07:00

thursday..
went to sch for like 30 mins or so only. for tt stupid cip.
okie, he gave our grp only a B.
the previous time was a B+.
doesnt reallie matter to me anyway.
went to play pool with them after that.
played for like 3 hrs plus.
then headed home.
slack all the way.
friday...
meet xn for lunch and for the BA thing, then went for CATS.
CATS ended in 30 mins time. wad the..... might as well dont come.
went to bugis with angeline after that.
shop around, and we each bought a bag.
the attitude of one of the shop's sales assistant simply sucks! i think i have much better attitude than him!
went to coffee bean for a drink and we chatted there for quite some time.
talked about alot. mostly abt sec sch days.
lots of memories. seems like sec sch days are the best days. reallie miss it.
headed home only when my mother called. hahas. need to have dinner with her...
weekends..
wad else but working? hais. damn tired. sat's sales is really sucky. my sales was like only 400+.. way below my own average of abt 800+ on a saturday. went to creative with xn and mei b4 work. had my back cover changed, finally. and poor xn... she had to get a new one.. *hugs girl*..
worked at 10AM on sunday! dragged myself up from bed! hais. how i wish i could sleep forever... doesnt have to wake up.. anyway, time pass faster on sun. at least the shop is not so cold. at least i hit the sales target. $1058.
i just cant wait for my pay and commission!
hais.
and its school again tomorrow.........
i miss him. i really do.

2005-08-24T22:36:00.000-07:00

skip both ob and cip lecture today.
only woke up at abt 12 in the noon.
went for bstats tutorial in the afternoon.
damn boring.
headed home straight after that.
slept again.
he called me just now.
i was so shocked when my phone rang.
ok, nothing much.
he only asked for my help for something.
its nice hearing from him again.

2005-08-23T11:33:00.000-07:00

have been working for both saturdays and sundays.
tired. tired tired.
the new uniform simply sucks. red 3/4 sleeve BLOUSE, black pants and black covered shoes!
the new shoes really hurt my leg!
been complaining the whole day! and the uniform is simply uncomfortable!
hais.
tired from work. yet school again on monday.
hais.
sunday night was too tired when i reach home to do my tutorials for mon.
and i fall alseep.
without doing anything.
this was the first time, econs tutorial not done!
hais.
had swimming training after school.
tough.
tired.
reach home was damn tired, but still survive through i completed my e jounral assignment!
hais. life is really tiring.
and now, im in school. OB. i hate it!
i just hope i dont flunk! if not im gonna repeat this stupid module!
hais... hais...
and yah, something happened yesterday. wasnt really happy. anyway, nvm.
just dont feel like talking about it.
my girls... i miss you....

2005-08-20T11:50:00.000-07:00

i'm back!
but i doubt anyone misses me; anyone have been coming here to visit.
all right, i have deleted all the previous entries,
and changed my blog skin.
guess i'll update soon..
have to head for work..